Ok so I'm going to talk about my dating life in this entry because a lot of you keep asking questions about it and asking that one question most of us get "Why are you still single?" and it just annoys the fuck out of me. Let me start off with that since i was 18 i have been in 3 major, serious, monogamous, ( i don't do that open relationship shit because its not for me) long term relationships. The first one ended because he didn't want to invest the time into the relationship and make me feel important or that i was his number one. The second one cheated on me, loved finding out about that one. As if i already didn't have enough trust issues!!! The third one just sorta fell apart because of one thing or another, we are still extremely close friends & still hang out today.
Now here are the reasons WHY i am still single:
1. I am already EXTREMELY picky about my friends and who i choose to socialize with so when it comes to a partner my standards are really high and i know its a bad thing but unfortunately i am stuck in my ways.
2. If the person meets my standards they usually aren't interested in me. Ironic right?
3. They do not live here
4. They have a boyfriend
5. Look different in person than in their pictures. That is why i don't use photoshop in ANY of my photos, i don't need to lie about anything, besides i have been told my pictures do not do me justice. So if you think i look good in my photos imagine me in person. so fetch :p
6. They are shorter than me ._.
So onto the Transgression i was talking about yesterday. Let me start off with saying that my gut is usually 99.9 % accurate, especially when it comes to people. Im also extremely good at being able to tell when someone is lying to me thanks to a little something called micro-expressions, if you don't know what they are look them up. My intuition is very good, plus my mind analyzes everything, so it can piece stuff together make a plausible theory and usually turns out to be true. ANYWAY moving on.
I started talking to this guy and everything was going good. He met all my physical standards and check list. Our personalities blended pretty well. We really enjoyed talking to each other. I thought to myself, this is too easy, this never happens. Unfortunately so much bad has happened to me that my mind just assumes the worst off the bat. So i started going through his Facebook timeline, his photos, his friends, his instagram. I gathered my evidence and made my theory. I wasn't really surprised that something was up because like i said my gut is usually right, and i was. He has a boyfriend. I will never understand cheaters it is something i do not condone. Needless to say i deleted his number……
-Chad Fitch
We sound so much alike. I am sure I have had people interested in me.attractive guys. But because my brain is used to rejection or just to protect me, ive just automatically put any thought of someone wanting to be with me if they are flirting, out of my mind. And beside that, I don't have lots of luck with men I pick.letting them pursue and capture me works out a lot better and less full of hurt and disappointment. I just have an anxiety disorder that can also cause me to freak out if something changes without me being ready and a lot of guys couldn't deal with the occasional drama.
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